I know...some of you have been wondering what have I been up to for the past 6 to 12 months. The significance of my existence to MOST can be comparable to the importance of peanuts.To SOME their notion about my position comes and goes like durian season...well...fair enough.To a noble FEW, their imagination on my whereabouts can be streached to all four corners of the universe...God Bless you kind loving souls.However, sorry to dissapoint you good people...my life during my dissapearing era was not as wild and exciting as most of you thought. It was downright bitter then sweet as custard pie made by the hands of an angel.

I did NOT celebrate my 21st birthday  by throwing a wild all-you-can-drink booze fest filled by musicians and hippies...nope...all I did was having a moment in Devi's @ Bangsar with a musician and a handful of hippies.In case YOU my fellow readers are shrouded by the location of Bangsar being an upscale place...Devi's is a regular mamak which happens to be in an upscale place. It was on that day too that I fully understood part of Wai King's prejudices when it comes to...*ahem* race. Hell man! I'm f***ing 21 time to clean up and grow up.

1st step- Remove all forms of grim and dirt that might damage goods

2nd step- Admit pass flaws, self-realization may be humiliating but by saying "YES I FUCKING DID THAT SHIT" you are on your way to setting your soul at ease. Denial worsens your chances for a peacefull sleep at night

3rd step- Be realistic for the love of god. Do not think just because you have forgiven yourself others will forgive you too. And do not say you can understand others because you are not them and you can't. I have quit trying to make others happy because it is unrealistic to go around and be a clown and a mime at the same time.

4th step- LADIES....NEVER and i mean NEVER let others put a price to you. You may devirginized yourself at a young age because you're just too fucking horny and someone might say 'she has no value now la'. To that someone...that girl has more value then you think cause she hell knows how to satisfy a man in bed...that was just an example la...bottomline is...self-experience is what your value is based on.

The last effort...FUCK the past...let it fucking go...forget about those who screwed your life...its not their fault because you let them screwed it...crying over it won't change anything so fuck it. Let the minions of the devil take that rotten part of your live and watch it on 'Primetime' nightly. It doesn't fucking matter...people will forget about it when you forget about it.

With all that taken into consideration...now all you have to do it just kick back relax and let God work his magic. And trust me His magic will happen when you least expect. Is not that its a blind miracle, its just that you are so busy trying to get your life together that you yourself won't realize that you are actually ready for things that you are longing for. Hmmm....reminds me of my birthday present from my dad....

I didn't expected it but he gave me THE car on my birthday. That's the sign of him thinking that I am ready la.

So, after a while of hibernation. It is time for me to face the rest of the world. I got all sorts of funny comments from old pals like Yumes and Ngion and his other half. Whatever la all is good. The better part has yet to come.

As a sign of my newcoming...I have cropped that bushy thing on my head you guys called hair...Now its really short...actually its not that dramatic la i just got rid of it because the bush was turning into the Black Forest.

As for the significant weight lost...i have no explanation for that...

Anywayz...welcome back friends and foes alike...love me hate me whatever....welcome