These past months have been a bitch to me..BUT i left my faith to God and I am content. Not only that i realized that I have so much more around me to appreciate, I found His grace when he gave me the strenght and peace to overcome it all. However being ME I have nothing to say to that person just good luck in your life, god bless and....................the perfect song for you.........

Dead as dead can be, my doctor tells me
But I just can’t believe him, ever the optimistic one
I’m sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead 'cause maybe
Someday I will walk away and say, You disappoint me,
Maybe you’re better off this way

Leaning over you here, cold and catatonic
I catch a brief reflection of what you could and might have been
It's your right and your ability
To become… my perfect enemy…

Wake up and face me, don’t play dead 'cause maybe
Someday I’ll walk away and say, You disappoint me,
Maybe you’re better off this way

Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
You’re better of this… you’re better off this…
Maybe you’re better off!

Wake up and face me, don’t play dead, 'cause maybe
Someday I’ll walk away and say, You fucking disappoint me!
Maybe you’re better off this way

Go ahead and play dead
I know that you can hear this
Go ahead and play dead
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
You fucking disappoint me!

Passive agressive bullshit.............

Since I have a lot of time to spare these days... I made an appointment with my little photo album. I enjoyed the gush of memories that washed into my head causing me to burst into a series of hysterical laughter as I reconcile with the wonderful and youthful past. I have to thank god for allowing my fate to collide with the richest people ever, which today is known as the 'gang'. When i say richest, I'm not measuring it materially...(although some of us have more $$$ then others HAHAHAHA I'm sure we all know WHO) These dudes are rich in character and no money in the world can buy them...well....unless they are really broke la...then maybe for a lot of ringgit they will do something...(We all know who will too!!!)

Lets start my recap with the ever so famous Malacca trip. Now Ngion I know what you are thinking now and YES you should have been here with us...But its ok...we still love you. So the most memorable thing in...

MALACCA

Not so much of that particular chicken and the rice ball...but the fact that

THIS GUY here....

Ordered 10 chicken rice balls (DON'T BE OBSCENE) to go as in 10 of

THESE

Instead the dude came to our face with 10 boxes of

THIS!!!

Now ain't that a bitch...well anyway thank god we're in Malacca and the dude just laughed it off and took it back instead of some KL bastards who will threaten us to buy it all!!!

The misadventures continues in day 2 of our trip.

All seasoned fishing fans know that the good time for fishing is either early in the morning or late evening, thats when all the fishes come out to feed. And then there was the embarassment to the PJ folks in the form of Kok Lee Lian, Chuan Jo Ann, Yong Wai King, Stephen Tan Wei Shan, and Yeoh Shaun Li...well we'll exclude Shaun out from this chain of shame as he DID wake up at the supposed time. But as for the rest of us jokers... we were having a gala time rolling around in our slumber...(Step slept like a log mind you) and Wai King...he brings a whole new meaning to 'good sleepin'...Let's just say I woke up for 3 seconds and thought that was a really huge bug...and the rest, they thought the yeti was invading Malacca...and Stephen...well....he slept like a log.

Well anyway back to our display of Malaysian timing, before heading to the pond we decided to go to MP...Mahkota Parade (the ONLY happening mall in town) to grab some bites...being the group of people that we are, we ended up grabbing A LOT of bites. Apart from the typical dry stuff we got Mac and Cheese, corn, burgers from Mc Ds...and the list goes on...

So does the road

GOD knows where the f**k we were going...all that is clear is...it was an endless parade of palm trees. Kinda like something out of a teen horror flick, you know; group of city teenagers on road trip outside civilization.

Then after hours of rounding, they realized that they were......*gasp*

LOST......

They HAD NO CHOICE but to get off from the safety and comfort of the car to ask from directions from the strange looking locals *gasp*

Ok so they were NOT strange looking... neither were they scary and creepy...they were very helpful too by the way...

However...nothing can prepare the kids for what will happen next...

Little did they know beside them stood the power that is the center of the little remote village...the source of evil, the one true culprit that is responsible for the confusion and misleading signs of the area!!! The one whose powers drew us to...IT fooled us by covering our eyes!!!! For the love of god!!! IT IS.....

DAMN YOU POLITICIANS!!!!

                                                                                 to be continued...

1. You'll Think of Me- Keith Urban

This song is absolutely sweet and straight, no metaphores, no crying your heart out, nothing rude just plain old self realization of one's worth. Very good for guys whose girl did a "went for the bigger fish" stunt.

Lines to look out

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleepin' with your pride
Wishin' I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life.

2. Get Over You- Sophie Ellis Bextor

Like Urban's country piece, this dance piece from Bextor kicks your man (In Urban's case...woman) right up his hiney. However unlike Urban who somehow says it in a patient way, Bextor nailed her ass of a man down to the point!

Lines to look out

You think you've got your way
But baby there's a catch
Don't need your flower play
Now you have met your match
You think you're in control
But that won't last that long
You thought you wore the crown
Honey you were wrong

3. I'd Rather Dance With You- Kings Of Convenience

This has got to be one of my favorite musical team of all time. Good thing the Norwegian duo are a well kept secret from today's over populated music scene. This song just makes you wanna get up and dance!!! I'm serious!!! Great beat, crisp voices from the guys and a romantic lyric in a light hearted, silly but adorable way. I absolutely love it!!!

Lines to look out

Even if I could hear what you said
I doubt my reply would be interesting for you to hear
Because I haven't read a single book all year
And the only film I saw, I didn't like it at all

4. B.Y.O.B- System Of A Down

Acronym for the party term Bring Your Own Bottle...(as in beer or whatever beverage). But to the politically conscious Armenians, B.Y.O.B tells us about the party of lies, hypocrisy and the result of those deeds that caused the world as we know today as it is(re; the Iraq war) SO! People of the world! live the lies of your politician and bring your own bombs!!!

Lines to look out

Why don't presidents fight the war?
Why do they always send the poor?

5. Where Have All The Cowboys Gone- Paula Cole

A good reminder to girls who think that life is all peaches and roses. Here's a fact...IT ISN'T...What I love about this song is the transition of it. Here is a woman singing about how beautiful love is when it first starts, and then little by little it loose it's magic and pulls her straight into the reality of commitment.

Lines to look out

Where is my John Wayne?
Where is my prairie sun?
Where is my happy ending?
Where have all the Cowboys gone?
Where is my Marlboro Man?
Where is his shiny gun?
Where is my lonely ranger?
Where have all the cowboys gone?

6. Where Are You Going?- Dave Matthews Band

The upmost honest and humble expression of love can be found in this piece of blues by Dave Matthews and his band. The winning formula for this band has got to be their southern influence of jazz and blues combined with dave's mellow and lazy voice which leaves us mesmerized...deadly combo...

Lines to look out

I am no superman
I have no answers for you
I am no hero, oh that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is where you are, is where I belong
I do know, where you go, is where I want to be

7. Sleeping Satellite- Tasmin Archer

I don't blame you guys if you haven't heard this one. In 1992 this very talented lady sang to us about the little things mankind neglect while in search for ways to expand his horizons. Good point there, look at our world today, for the price of advancement we made our home a filthy place to be in.

Lines to look out

Did we fly to the moon too soon
did we squander the chance
in the rush of the race
the reason we chase is lost in romance
and still we try
to justify the waste
for a taste of man's greatest adventure

8. By Your Side- Sade

Whenever i listen to this song...it always makes me cry. It's simple; just the undying love from one person to another. I'll let you in on this, I would love to hear this on my wedding day...it'll be beautiful... YES PEOPLE I DO dream about it.

Lines to look out

You think I'd leave your side baby?
You know me better than that
Think I'd leave you down
When you're down on your knees?
I wouldn't do that
I'll tell you you're right when you're wrong

9. WHere The Wild Roses Grow- Nick Cave and Kylie Minogue

This was before Kylie squeezed herself into the little hot pants prancing around the club in her video 'Spinning Around'. In this piece, she was dark, and serious...just as any indie rocker would be. If you think Kylie is all about the booty well NO this woman CAN sing!!! and trust me listen to this and you will take her seriously! This innocence of her voice adds the chill for this number. The song itself sings the ultimate crime of passion. Dark and creepy...in short...Horrific...

Lines to look out

On the third day he took me to the river
He showed me the roses and we kissed
And the last thing I heard was a muttered word
As he knelt above me with a rock in his fist

10. The Outsider- A Perfect Circle

I would love to dedicate this song to all the people in the world who thinks fame and attention is the only thing worth living for and go all out to get it. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!! Anywayz... This has got to be one of their best songs ever along with Judith, 3 Libra's, and The Noose in my personal opinion. Maynard James Keenan has got to be one of the living musical genius in this age. For the record...like James Blunt, Maynard was also in the army before becoming a musician. I'm telling you military men are impressive.

Lines to look out

Disconnect and self-destruct one bullet at a time
What's your hurry, everyone will have his day to die
If you choose to pull the trigger
Should your drama prove sincere
Do it somewhere far away from here

Was at Astro the whole day doing some shoot on some show for Hitz.TV...

Before any of u can say "SO COOL!!" Well...not quite...the only thing cool there was having Jessie around!!

First show some Top 10 thingy ala TRL...Well I think we dissapointed the production crew with our minimal enthusiasm...I have no comments really...why don't you guys just watch it this wednesday...

Now straight to the thing I wanna gush about!!! The second show we did today was Amplified...I dunno when is it'll be aired but do check it out...The artist today was none other then the multi tasking J-Lo...and NO not that Latino bitch....I am talking bout Jason Lo. It was a fucking great performance and it seriously made me consider taking local english acts more seriously...really I'm telling you guys its worth the time...

Anywayzzz.... yes J-Lo and his entourage blast the studio away with familiar hits and hits that I've never heard before but glad i did...His band comprised of seasoned musicians in the business and hell did they throw us off with their skills and style...And of course the man himself was a bit under the weather but he really did earned my respect for putting on such a good show and a good attitude!! THAT is professional.

One of them...*yes jessie here goes* was his bassist... I'm telling you for a guy with an ass kicking longkang name- he got one thing most budding musicians should have...FLARE...

I'm telling you this guy got all the right style, the look, skill, the performer in him and also he's really nice.All i can ever think off when I was watching him was "DUDE I WANNA DATE THIS GUY!!!" and after talking to him...well let's just say my brains got diverted as we speak...

Although he's not exactly Hugh Jackman but that aura he has carries definitely reeks class . When he plays he doesn't look constipated, or trying too hard to remember his notes, just natural although there were some parts he looked like he was having an orgasm...but then again they all did...HEY that's enjoying the beat man!! and he does it with a lot of flare i tell you...

After meeting this beautiful soul of a man. My taste and criteria in guys has certainly escalated into new heights...

But than again since when am I in the position to set criterias!!! But hey is not like my preference in men before is sky high...this time its more specific and narrowed...

It was an eye opening trip and damn we had FUN!!!...Not to mentioned the freesbie they gave us HAHAHA!!! AND FROM THE BAG!!!

The Original Soundtrack for the 2006 FIFA World Cup...

FRONT VIEW BACK VIEW

Freakin cool Amplified T-shirt from HITZ

and finally...in irony of me wanting to buy a new pendrive...i got a...

Tampon sized PENDRIVE....amazing....

ALSO

I dunno why i agree to this but posing for cameras is still my weak point...Sorry la i have a very low self esteem okay!!! But here are some pics courtesy of Jessica Karina Anna Constantin!!!

The Indon...The Perempuan Gila...and Mr Lo himself... funny fella...

Don't let the looks fool ya this dude has got to be one of the best guitarist I have ever seen...he was malu-malu when we approached him...hmm i don't know if it's just US or he's really malu-malu...

FINALLY the man I'm dying to see to perform again!! No details needed as I have been raving bout this guy in this post!!!

What a man....

No he's not in J Lo's band but he's some really cool...not to mention cheeky dude working with Astro who was hanging out with us for the entire day (that's his job la)...ok he tells me people calls him Kicap... Go figure...

this should be interesting....ngion just tagged me and YES since i am on break and very free why not expand my horizon....

QUESTION 1

Have you ever.....

1)smoked (weed or cigs)
2)consumed alcohol
3)slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4)slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5)made out with someone of the opposite sex
6) made out with someone of the same sex
7)had someone in your room of the opposite sex
8) watched porn
9) bought porn
10) done drugs
total: 6

11)taken pain killer
12) taken someone elses prescription medicine
13) lied to your parents
14) lied to a friend
15) snuck out of the house
16) done something illegal
17) cut yourself
18) hurt someone
19) wished someone to die
20) seen someone die
total: 9

21) missed curfew
22) stayed out all night
23) eaten a carton of icecream by yourself
24) been to a therapist
25) been to rehab
26) dyed your hair
27) recieved a ticket
28) been in a wreck
29) been to a club
30) been to a bar
total: 7

31) been to a wild party
32) seen the Mardi Gras
34) had a spring break in Florida
35) sniffed anything
36) wore black nail polish
37) wore arm bands
38) wore t-shirts with band names
39) listened to rap
40) own a 50 cent cd
total: 2

41) dressed gothic
42) dressed prep
43) dressed punk
44) dressed grunge
45) stole something
46) been too drunk to remember anything
47) blacked out
48) fainted
49) had a crush on your neighbor
50) had someone sneak into your room
total: 6

51) snuck into some1 else's room
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex
53) been to a concert
54) dry humped someone or something
55) been called a slut
56) called someone a slut
57) installed speakers in your car
58) broke a mirror
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
60) brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush
total: 6

61) consider ludacris your favorite rapper
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters
63) cruised the mall
64) skipped school
65) had an eating disorder
66) had an injury
67) gone to court
68) walked out of a resteraunt without paying
69) caught something on fire
70) lied about your age
total: 5

71) owned an apartment
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
73) cheated with someone
74) got in trouble with the police
75) talked to a stranger
76) hugged a stranger
77) kissed a stranger
78) rode in the car with a stranger
79) been sexually harrassed
80) been verbally harrassed
total: 4

81) met face to face with someone you met online
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight
83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight
84) watched tv for 12 hours straight
85) been to a fair
86) been called a bad influence
87) cursed
88) prank called someone
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex
90) cheated on a test
total: 10

10.) No ngion...i was MADE for stoning....but yea stoning is cool....

oh what a day what a day!!!

you know something very interesting came about to me this morning...I was sitting around the Plaza with my classmates; munching on my High 5 Ikan Bilis bun and having one of those LimKokWing bottled water when i saw my Professional Writing lecturer looking for a seat with her cup of morning coffee...

I know this doesn't sound like me but i actually invited her to come join us...well yea in case your wondering...I am also wondering since when I bother to build a relationship with lecturers...

ANYWAYZZZ....

I am actually kind of fond of her, in every ways. She is so calmed, and brilliant not to mention stylish for someone her age. She has this really mesmerizing aura which gives you an inner peace when you're around her. The truth was, I really looked up to her. And today she let me in on her secret....

FIND INNER PEACE IN GOD

YES i have heard this many many times...and as 'some' of you might know it I am searching for some answers. Today she proved to me something which i can feel but cannot explain...

She says that when you have faith in Him, you will know that everything you do will be alright and that is the inner peace you will get. When i told her that i still don't understand that concept she told me that it takes a lot of mistakes to understand it. And realization as a driving force, only then we will want it. She explained to me that when she was younger, she walked through the path of sin and there was no peace in her heart. As she got older, she realized that all and found her peace through Him. She then told me that the questions of life can be answered in the Bible if we look closely.

Then she mentioned something which strucked me the most. She said when you have inner peace, it shows and people around you will want to have that same peace as you...In this case...that will be me...

It was as though she came out of no where, telling me about the life that was familiar to my ears. With her saying all that, that little faint light of hope for redemption seems to grow brighter...

He does work in many strange ways.

first off i would like to congratulate ngion jing ping upon his discovery of broadband and the 'blogging' culture!!! WELCOME TO CYBERSPACE AS WE KNOW!!!

i shall now make the announcement as required...

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i've just recieved an e-mail from wai king!!! he's safe and sound in Aussie land now! that is good to know...

Now some serious issues at hand...as a counter to Daniel K's blog stating that i hate Shaun and he doesn't understand why i do

(Saturday, February 11, 2006 post, www.danielk.blogdrive.com)

Now let me explain it to the world...again...

Shaun if you are reading this...i hope you are aware of your actions and remember that you have brought this upon yourself and no one else has a hand in this.

Shaun is a GREAT guy i believe. He just has proven himself to be a boy living in the 14th century. He needs to have a major personality make over and pull his head down lower to the ground. Before doing all that and above all he needs to sit down and contemplate the meaning of 'RESPECT'. It's a good word Shaun...and you don't deserve it if you don't understand that other people around you deserves it too.

That is all i have to say i do not wish to elaborate more about the matter.

Yeah... now back to blogging...

There was this interesting quote by Jack Sparrow in Pirates of the Caribbean; the part where he and the gay-a** Orlando Bloom went to save that woman for the first time, he told Will Turner (Orlando Bloom) that he is well on his way to being a pirate (much to the dissapointment of Will because he was such a wannabe pious f**k) and the dialouge went something like this;

Jack : You know, for having such a bleak outlook on pirates you're well on your way to becoming one. Sprung a man from jail, commandeered a ship of the Fleet, sailed with a buccaneer crew out of Tortuga [they both look at the gold on the bottom of the little river] …and you're completely obsessed with treasure.

Will : That's not true. I am not obsessed with treasure.

Jack : [looks in on the gathering] Not all treasure is silver and gold, mate.

I reckon Jack Sparrow has to be the only intellectual pirate within the seven seas. ANYwayzzz....

Come to think about it, doesn't that make us all....a pirate...? The thing about we mortals is...there is ALWAYS something for us to be obsessed about, there is a never ending flow of 'WANTS' in an average lifetime of a human being.

Lame man terms- GREED

first and fore most i would like to say goodbye to Mr Yong Wai King who has left us here in beautiful Malaysia for Australia!!!

he will be missed...

Back to geographically nearer events; my 2 months of bumming around is coming to and end *#$%$*

Sunddenly dragging myself back to college doesn't seem like a bad idea. Let's face it spending 2 months doing nothing but burning $$$ isn't as idealistic as it sounds.

Let me give u a quick recap on my achivements for the past 2 months...

I'VE ...

1. managed to sit still in front of the television for 6 hours straight...

2. show my face so often in williams that i'm guessing he'll pay me to stop going

3. navigated around one utama blind folded

4. memorize 6 songs from System Of A Down...Serj...here i come

5. burned enough CDs for people that there is a consideration of starting one of those pirated franchise

6. heard and watched so much football that i KNOW i can take Arsenal to their glory

7. proven myself to be a budding suffragist

8. seen the dissapointment of mankind in the form of stupidity (re: MCD- male chauvinist dog)

9. unleash the domestic goddess within...

10. realized that i'm not as funny as i thought i was